What’s next?

The clock ticks past 12. I get a couple of messages on Whatsapp, a single call from a school friend – and that’s that. I am supposed to be twenty-six now, and becoming more clueless by the minute.

Hindsight has a wonderful way of making things in the past appear more rosy than they were – but I am completely sure that what I am going through on a daily basis is unrivaled in my earlier years. There is a complete lack of any significant challenge – work is hectic but mundane. However, what is really frightening is what I go through during mini-vacations (India doesn’t really understand the concept of a full-blown vacation); unless I am stuck to my screen playing poker, I am at a complete loss to understand how to keep my brain cells occupied.

I also do not understand how my peers manage this.  Clearly, from the time of engineering entrance examinations where every day was spent discovering new concepts like rotational mechanics, hydrocarbons, integral calculus to the present day activities of making boring presentations or excel analysis (which is only challenging because data is in a shit format), we have down-graded our standard of occupying our grey cells a lot. I imagine this must be true for my peers as well – but do they also face this constant challenge or are they already too weighed down by life’s constant thrusts (education loans, marriage pressure) to step back and think about this?